Deciding to divorce was second only to the pain of telling my oldest child his parents were divorcing. A week after my youngest child was born I learned some devastating facts about my marriage which were about to turn my world upside down. But, fifteen years later my world is not only sunny-side up but also a whole lot different — very fulfilling. I’m living out my dreams.
I’ll never forget the day a week after my third child was born. I tried to buy diapers for my son and my credit card was declined, yet again. The humiliation I felt when I approached my car empty-handed, while my parents and baby were waiting for me, was devastating. There is usually a breaking point that causes people to make difficult decisions. And that episode was to be the start of mine. It was the low point that began my catalyst for change.
I believed in the sanctity of marriage in good and bad times. I grew up fairly sheltered, with tunnel vision and naiveté. The “D” word never existed in my vocabulary and I was determined to stay married. I made my life about my children. But all that unravelled that fateful day my diaper purchase was declined – the day I realized that the trust, communication and honesty were gone from my marriage.
Pondering the decision to divorce
I cried myself to sleep for a year, still pondering the decision to divorce. It wasn’t until after a year of soul searching, therapy and digging myself out of the abyss of guilt that I finally decided to tell my husband that our marriage was over – the
third most painful experience of my divorce.
The rest of the details are not important. As I speak so candidly about divorce, many often ask for details about my own. And, while those might make for a B movie, I try for maturity and reason to take over. I pride myself as a parent who tries to put her children’s best interest first and have made a personal pact — never say or write anything that I wouldn’t want my children to hear or read
Embroiled in an “emotional divorce”
I became embroiled in an “emotional divorce” which caused my “legal divorce” to keep the file burning for seven long years. And what did I get? Legal bills and other divorce-related expenses large enough to have bought the home of my dreams…but enough therapy to help me rebuild my life and achieve my dreams.
I learned many valuable lessons along the way. There are two sides of divorce to wade through– the emotional divorce and the legal divorce. Divorce is uppercase Emotional, and if not managed properly, it can wreak havoc on the legal process. While it would be really nice if the two elements could be handled one after the other–you could spend a few years dealing with the emotional issues, and then, heart and head clear, go through the legal process–but, the truth is, that emotions and legal processes cannot be clinically separated, and usually
have to be managed at the same time. It takes maturity and resolves to do what is really right.
Empowered with knowledge
As I began to move on post-divorce I met lots of wonderful divorcees. But, for many, there was a recurring theme of despair, disappointment and sadness. I didn’t want to be like that. I wanted to be focused, hopeful and confident. It was this determination that was my game changer. I decided I was going to write a book about divorce. My book would be different. It would share my pain so that others could heal from the lessons. It would share the wisdom of North America’s foremost divorce professionals so that others could be empowered with knowledge and avoid my mistakes.
And that is how my book, The Smart Divorce, was conceived and written. So, by now you must be wondering how this story has anything to do with reframing my thoughts. Well, my diamond engagement ring sat in my safety deposit box for 10 years–the shattered symbol of love, hope and promise. But, when I received the publisher’s advance for writing The Smart Divorce, I decided to rethink what that symbol of love, hope and promise meant.
I took part of the book advance to a jeweller to redesign and reset my engagement ring. That diamond ring (pictured) has now become my “empowerment ring” and a new symbol of love, hope and promise, but with an entirely different connotation.
It means: Love – of myself Hope – of having a fulfilling and good life and, Promise – to empower me to be a role model for my children and others to move forward with focus, hope and confidence.
Who would have thought that when I said those words “I want a divorce”, that 15 years later I feel I’m living the best life yet. I’ve rethought what a meaningful life really means, reframed my dreams and feel empowered.
At The Smart Divorce:
We understand that deciding to divorce is a significant and often overwhelming step. It’s a decision that comes with a whirlwind of emotions and a multitude of questions. You might feel lost, uncertain, and alone. But remember, you don’t have to navigate this journey by yourself.
Our team of professionals at The Smart Divorce has walked this path alongside many individuals just like you. We know the challenges you’re facing, the questions swirling in your mind, and the fears that might be keeping you awake at night. More importantly, we know how to help.
We believe that every cloud has a silver lining, and every challenge presents an opportunity for growth. Divorce, while difficult, can also be a time of self-discovery, personal growth, and newfound independence. It’s a chance to redefine your life on your own terms.
Our role is to guide you through this process, providing you with the support, resources, and expertise you need to make informed decisions. We’re here to help you navigate the complexities of divorce, minimize the stress, and emerge stronger on the other side.
We invite you to reach out to us. Schedule a Get Acquainted Call today. Let’s discuss your unique situation and explore how we can support you on this journey. Remember, you’re not alone. With the right guidance and support, you can navigate this challenging time with confidence and grace.
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